The past month or so has been a pretty tough one for me. While I have great peace about our recent decisions that have us living in Santa Cruz, teaching in the public school classroom everyday and working intentionally towards living out “the Church” to the community around us, I have been going through a rather brutal detox from past life/church/school rhythms. My tendency is to try to stifle or ignore my depressed thoughts, but I’m finding that a symptom of the very system I’m am trying to recover from. It is amazing the new, fresh, difficult, angering and very enlightening perspective I am gaining when I embrace the realities of my past and present through these eyes. Very important.
With that being said, this past weekend I had two of my best buddies in town for a few hours each. Between rich conversation with Ryan Mcrae on Saturday and my long time mentor Chip Johnson on Sunday, I came out very encouraged and hopeful. Not hopeful in a “well that was an insightful month of detox and now it’s time to move on” kind of way. But a hope that is centered in embracing and growing in and through these uncomfortable and vocationally confused times. For me, it is in these times of wrestling through the good and bad with those that are closest to me, that the Kingdom of God is more visible and present than ever.
Thanks fellas…jonny
Transition…well..it sucks…I am sorry but there is no nice way to put it! The bigger the transition the harder it seems to be. And while steping back and changing your course is enlightening and needed at times in life.. no doubt. Sometimes things become clear that you never could have prepared for and how we deal with these realizations determines the next length of our journey…it is an overwhelming responsibility. Thank God we have him, I do feel sorry for the non-believers in all aspects, but especially these. We will all come out of all of these life changes gracefully I am sure, because of our FAITH. Love you Guys!
You’re welcome.